March 5th, 2009 by Marcia
As I sat in silence, and surrendered to God, I asked the very simple question, “What is mine to do, God? Show me what you want me to be doing. I thought I knew, but maybe I don’t. It doesn’t seem to be working too well for me.”
Sitting quietly, not talking to God at this point, I was just hoping I could keep some of my mind chatter low enough in volume in order to hear God’s voice whispering to me. I waited, and waited. Of course, having meditated off and on for many years, I knew this process was just that, a process. And I also knew that my “answers” might come in unexpected ways, and not in that particular quiet time. It might come later in the week, in the shower, or even driving to an appointment.
Open the Channel of Communication to Receive
Basically, what I was doing was signifying my intention to listen. I was letting my Higher Self, God and all my other spiritual helpers know that I was wanting to come into a humble place of receptivity. I was letting them know that I really don’t know what’s best (although I’m sure that’s the case a lot of the time!).
Once you show Spirit that you are a willing listener, and that you will create time in your schedule to be still and receptive, you will get what you have requested. It may take a day, a week, or a month, so hang in there. And be open to getting your answers through various means. Yes, you might get a thought while in meditation that speaks directly to your question. Or, you could get a phone call later from a friend who casually mentions something that you can interpret as a response, even though your friend may be talking about something entirely different.
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I Want to Be Living My Purpose God!
Let me give an example. So, my question, we’ve already determined was, “What is mine to do?” In other words, I don’t want to be just doing something because I think it’s fun, or it’s lucrative, I want to be doing work that is serving my purpose in this lifetime.
So, I began to hear the answers, through various avenues. One day, I had an email from a person who had purchased my “Catch the Breeze” CD, telling me how the songs were helping her through her divorce. She said, “I felt worthless, and then I listened to the music, and it was singing messages of hope, and worth and I began to sing out loud. Now I listen everyday on the way to work and I have more confidence and strength. This has made the whole experience way easier than it was. Thank you so much!”
It’s nice to get these emails. And I usually just have a thought like that, “oh that was nice.” And I’ll usually write the person a response, thanking them, or the business part of me may ask them if I can use it as a testimonial for my website. But I don’t think of it as a message from Spirit, pointing a direction to me. I got several “answers” over a period of a couple weeks though, after repeatedly asking the question. Then came a phone call from a friend, saying something to me about my voice, and my songs, how pretty they were and I should do more with them. I finally got it! I was being shown that at least part of what I’m here to do is to share my gift of music. And, I was being asked to put music higher up in priority on my to do list. Usually, if there was any time left over after doing all my other important tasks each day, I might go to my guitar or keyboard. Usually, though, I didn’t pay much attention to my musical self, until something called to me, such as a song that wanted to be born, or getting ready some music for a presentation. It was not something I did every day.
Good Intentions and Old Habits
I really did try to make music a bigger priority. And, looking at my life previous to that revelation, I had. It certainly moved up the list, and yet those old habits were hard to break. I was still giving most of my day to working on the computer, or doing all the other things that called out to be done.
The good news is though, we have choice. I began to choose to focus on music a little more on certain days. My heart began to open to its voice a little more. I realized I had some real pain in my heart about shutting down my full musical self. That’s a story for a different day.
The point is, whatever messages you receive from Spirit, act on them. And don’t be hard on yourself if you don’t sustain that action, or seem to fall back into old habits. Just dust off that intention, and push forward into a new day, where you can make any choice you want. Each day is brand new, and with a gentle hand on your habitual self, you can create a new behavior.
And creating is what we’re all about, right? We are all Creators of our lives, in every moment. Right? Not really.
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